been really tired and busy recently with all the deployment and "war" stuff...so tired that i always sleep at home with no interest of going out whenever ppl ask me to...so i MIA-ed for about 3 to 4 weeks before i finally went out with br, bh and co last night to celebrate br birthday at chevron ktv...not really fun i would say except for the cheap tiger beer at a glass of onli $2.50!!!!! drank quite a lot before i finally get myself drunk and high so that i would be able to SING in front of them...whahahahahahaha...self consious eh me???

i dunoe why but even in front of my good frenz outside who have know me for about 7years, i find it a hassle to talk to them...ahhhh in fact i find it a chore to talk to any living soul in this stupid disgusting ironic contradicting world...is that effect of what happened really that big???i wonder why...hahahahahahahaa...so to that mr hwa out there or anyone who has been trying to be nice...i am sorry...maybe u all should jus leave me alone until i get myself up and back again...till then i guess i will jus be hurting anyone near me...whahahahaha...isnt it jus fun????LOL