all my time and effort which i put in last sem had prove to be completely useless!! all the late night coffees...weekends burned...no life no friends no nothing...ITS COMPLETELY USELESS...did all this for what?? just for the kicks of spending more money to review my paper?? i cant believe it...i guess im really not suited for studying...what else can i do??? i dun see anything in life which im interested in...why why why??? i tot if i really work hard and believe in hardwork for once...it will pay off...instead it just totally backfire on me...im so scare now i wun be able to get into environmental...i need to get in...I NEED TO!!! only by getting into environmental will i then be able to really convince myself that spending one yr in architecture wasn't a mistake!! haiz...im so screwed! going into a mental breakdown soon! and i cant tell this to anyone...i realise no one around me can listen...or willing to listen and still be on my side...majority of ppl will only try to console me by telling me how more screwed up he or she is than me. then whats the point?? its not like im campaigning to see who can be the president of having a more screwed up life! which is why im more and more unwilling to listen to ppl's problem...whenever anyone has a problem...i will try to put myself in their shoes and say all the stuff that will make them feel good...totally never get this from anyone...im very close to be done with everything/everyone around me! god damn it!

haiz...anw my gpa got 3.81...ppl will prob say its not that bad at all...but if u noe the amount of time i put into studying...u will noe 3.81 is fucking cui!! other ppl will prob get gpa 5million if they studied like i did! haiz...enough said...im so depressed........................................